Today for example, we ran to Lowe's to pick up some Bee killer and the second we stepped into the store I remembered this feeling of excitement. I remembered running around and hiding in the model bathtubs and sitting on the toilets. Flipping light switches on and off and playing hide and seek among all the paint chips, ladders, and machinery. My Mom said that when we were building our old house, me and Ben were very young and whenever she brought us we would run around and continue to be really naughty. I haven't thought of that in years or even stepped inside a Lowe's or Home Depot for that matter so it was just funny that the second I stepped inside the store this rush of memories came to me.
Lightning is the other thing that brings back a rush of feelings. I don't want to get too mushy or anything, but I can remember watching the lightning with Bruce the summer before he left on his mission. We just laid a blanket out on the front lawn and watched our very own presentation in the sky. I saw a picture or something the other day, and I realized that I haven't remembered those fun and exciting times with Bruce in so long and it was as if seeing that picture unlocked this flood of water just waiting to gush. :) My stomach flipped and the excitement of summer kisses made me smile. It wasn't even the memory itself but the essence of it. There's a very specific feeling that was with us, not just on that occasion but multiple times, and I seemed to have forgotten it altogether. It was such a familiar sense that I haven't felt in so long. I just... love those moments.
The other time it happened to me was this week as I was driving home from work. It just happened to be when the sun was positioned at an exact point in the sky which made the lighting just right which caused this feeling to hit me. I don't even know what it was... just a familiarity that hit me. I know I've seen and felt that feeling before and because the lighting was different enough... and yet the same enough...it brought my mind to some random nostalgic feeling.
I like to see them as Stolen Moments. These moments that are with us for so long and then we forget about them simply because we don't take the time to remember them. We get caught up in the 'important' things and forget to remember. :) Then we see images, or smell smells that trigger feelings that capture the essence of times we were most at peace and had found a sort of happiness. That's when the moments that were stolen from us are 'found' again. I just think it's so cool. This is a reminder to myself, and everyone else, to always remember the stolen moments.
Oh Lyss...you have such a way of saying things. I totally know how you feel! I have moments like that all the time! Me and my roommates were talking about things we did when we were little and that feeling of nostalgia was almost haunting. I miss those days...and yet, I don't. :) Thanks for posting about this!
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